Vodka Therapy

Time for a change...

Usually a thought will pop into my head, I'll jump on the computer and start writing as the thought is happening. I've mentioned before that my blog is more like a conversation among friends as I find it's the easiest way for me to write.

I've tried thinking things thru before I jump on but I've never been able to get it down.

Also incase you havent noticed I've randomley started adding songs to my posts.
What can I say... I'm emotional, a little corny and I love music.

I want to delve back into how this all started, so I'm gonna give "thinking things thru" another try.
Here I go...

This is where it all began... the foundations of what was to become the first steps in my journey of self discovery. It started with a drink or 2 or 3 and shots and cigarettes and 2 of my best girl friends... I had called an emergency meeting as I was feeling particularly low upon the realisation that all men are pigs. At first the conversation was stilted and emotional... there were tears and feelings of self loathing... I had invited my soul sister Sita as I needed her particular brand of biased unconditional loving support the kind only a true friend can give. To complement Sita I had also asked Amina... a great friend with exstensive counselling experience.

I had just broken up with a guy whom I'd been living with for over a year so it was a little messy. Looking back now I'm actually thankful to him. Before meeting him I had written myself off as someone who just wasn't meant to be in a relationship. I had come to terms with this belief to the point of total acceptance. He kinda caught me off guard and before I knew it I was in the very thing I never thought I'd have. Yes the relationship was dysfunctional.... no wait that’s not a strong enough term... it was completely FUCKED.

Still it made me realise that this is something I want and more importantly something I actually deserve.
If I can fall in love with a pig that treats me like a piece of shit then clearly there is someone out there for everyone.

I had just had this major life changing revelation over drinks with the girls.
The very first Vokda Therapy session.

As I continued to explain the situation I was worried I'd get Amina's professional opinion when what I really needed was for her to be a friend.
Thank god she came thru with the goods ("Hell NO... he did what?")

When it was over, we finished the bottle and hit the clubs.

It was a fucking amazing night.
The first of many...

Miss Amina this song is for you ;) xoxo