Signing Off

Well this is it.
The end of the road for me and this blog.

It has been my safety blanket.
A place for me to vent all my thoughts and feelings.
To question myself and to reflect on my actions.

It has helped me get thru some tough times.

I once poured my emotions into these pages because holding on to them would have over whelmed me.
But my time of reflection is over now.
I don't need to look back anymore.

I want to look forward... I want to move on.

What once helped guide me is now holding me back.
So it's time for me to let go.

No more living in the past... just living.

I'm gonna be ok :D

This is me... signing off

Standing Still

It is our past that makes us who we are today.

Good and bad.

I've been living in the past for far too long and it's been stopping me from moving into my future.

I've let allot of shit go.
At first it was a relief... it felt good... and things got better.
There isn't the longing... the yearning feeling I once had... and yet I find that I still miss some of the things I left behind.

I'm at a crossroads.

I am so close to something I can taste it.
One more step forward and  it's mine.

Just one more step.

I'm torn between moving on for good or taking a step back.

So for now I find myself here... standing still

Redefine

It's been a while since I've been back here.
A lot has happened... it seems like things are actually coming together.

In earlier posts I have expressed that I've felt like concrete... set in my ways... but theres been a big shift lately, a massive shake up.
I've gone thru all the usual phases... hurt and pain, mourning and reflection, rebuilding, losing hope and finding it again, second chances and letting things go.

All the pieces are falling into place.
It's been a hard road but it feels as if this leg of the journey is almost over.
I feel content in myself and I haven't felt like that in a long time.

Don't get me wrong I still need a lot of work :P but I've made so much progress.
I'm on the home stretch... I can see the light at the end of the tunnel

I'm no longer living in the past nor am I fearful of the future.
I'm ready to start living here and now.

Loving this song right now... the lyrics really speak to me.